Changes

I meant to start posting reviews on a more regular basis but I started work at a new place this week so I haven't had the chance to write much. I wasn't in the mood for it either because I was/am trying to get used to being in this new place.

It's a completely different industry from all of the places I've worked at so far and it's like I'm suffering from culture shock. To me, it's a lot more glamorous and upmarket compared to anything I know. I probably should have expected it but I pretty much went into this job blind. 

I feel like a fish out of water, completely out of place, and like a frumpy and uncool person when I go into work. Don't get me wrong, the people there are nice but y'know, I feel like I really shouldn't be there. It doesn't help that I'm really quiet among people I don't know very well. I speak less than 10 sentences in all the 8 hours I'm at work.

After a week into it I realized there's a lot more to this job than what I've heard/imagined about it. And a lot of these things don't appeal to me/is hard for me to do/would cause me to be emotionally drained. But I also find myself wondering if I'm limiting myself and my potential when I'm being so stubborn about things that I think I can do and things I can't do. 

I know I'm being very negative and pessimistic about the whole thing, and I'm not allowing myself to fully experience it and to try and enjoy the process,  but it's so hard to. Every time I think about next week I can feel my heart wither a bit. It seemed as though the weekend took forever to arrive. 

I've already signed a contract, so I need to hand in my two weeks notice if I want to leave. I just want to hand it in NOW because I can't see myself surviving for a few more weeks. On the other hand I feel like I should be more open about this and sincerely give it another shot but it's so hard. I know that I'm partly the reason I feel so miserable right now because, 1. I'm being so negative, 2. I don't try to be sociable or friendly so that it's easier for me and others to talk.. 

Also, I agreed to stay for a certain amount of time and I really hate going back on my words when it comes to work related matters so if I quit I know for sure I'm going to feel shitty and blame myself for it. Especially so since my boss is actually really nice and lovely. 

:(

The 'I Lost My Mind' Haul

Despite the fact that I am currently unemployed and not taking any allowance from my parents anymore, I somehow became a loon and placed a disgustingly huge order of Korean cosmetics from Qoo10. Somebody shoot me in the head please!! 

I didn't order via Gmarket Korea because I was quite lazy to look through some hangeul pages and the other time I bought clothes from there, the shipping fee was quite expensive. The sellers I ordered from are based in Korea, I presume they're sort of like a middleman, purchasing from the brands and then selling on Qoo10. 

Currently, I'm waiting on one more order but that's just two blushes, so I'll just update the post when they arrive! (I actually forgot that I also have an ASOS order on the way omg someone just kill me now)

I purchased all the above from this shop. There's quite a large range of products available, so you can easily find the more popular products and order them at one go (like I did OTL). I placed my order (for everything) on the 11th (Monday) around 3am-ish and I received the items on the 17th (Sunday). They were also the most generous with samples! Probably because I bought so many items... (´Д` )

Banila Co. products! It seems like the shop is run by the brand itself. This order arrived the earliest, on the 15th (Friday). I thought they would be generous with samples because from the other photo reviews, they gave a lot of samples even though the person only purchased one item. Sadly, they only gave me four samples. They're currently giving out the free eyeliner pencil in the photo if your order is above S$23.

Another bunch of Innisfree products from a different seller because I couldn't find them from the first shop mentioned. I also received the items on the 15th.

Free stuff!!! ☆*･゜ﾟ･*\(≧∇≦)/*･゜ﾟ･*☆

Kuen Kuen said in the future she would give me her samples and she didn't know I liked them so much but tbh I'm don't really use samples much. I don't know why I got so excited about them though hahaha.

(update)

The last and final batch of items from this haul! They arrived on the 20th, so compared to the rest it seemed like they took forever to reach me. I bought them here and this shop seems to have the widest range of brands available. However, the shipping is kind of slow :/ 

Moving Photos

Before Instavideo, there were Meitugifs. Hahaha I dug these up from an old blog!! I looked so much younger ;__;

I'm feeling real guilty right now because I spent a whole ton of money which I really shouldn't be spending on beauty products. WHYYYY DO I ALWAYS DO THISSSSS.