Santa Monica Beach

I'm finally posting some photos from my trip to California this year, almost four months later. I actually tried blogging about the trip after I came back but everything didn't feel right. The slight OCD nature in me didn't like the way the photos were processed, how I was talking about the trip, how some photos didn't look good together, etc. Am slightly crazy, please ignore. 

We visited Santa Monica Beach on our second day and we reached around 3 or 4 in the afternoon. Despite the fact that we were there during the summer, it was rather overcast and really chilly. I liked it anyway. 

We didn't visit the pier because we only had enough spare change for an hour on the parking meter, so we just walked along the beach. It was very lovely. The sand was soft and since the weather was cool, you could walk barefoot comfortably. The beach was huge and there weren't a lot of people so the atmosphere felt very calm and relaxing. 

We were all very happy to be there that day, so even though the photos look slightly gloomy they definitely bring back happy memories for me. 

Semipermanent

I came across this web series documentary about expats living in Seoul and I've been spending my entire night watching it. My knowledge of Korea and what it is mostly stems from spending excessive amounts of time watching Korean television shows so what I know is largely superficial. The videos definitely bring to light a side of Seoul that is more than just Kpop.

Even though it's pretty well-known that Korea is a really stressful place to live in, it also seems like it's a place brimming with culture and life. There are all these indie boutiques and cafes, lots of young and creative individuals, and even as the country is becoming more modern there are still all of these traditional houses and alleys around that give the country some of its character. 

Hearing these expats talk about living in a country different from your own makes me long to move overseas and live too. It sounds exciting! Definitely interesting to note how the expats interviewed are all from western countries though. Also makes me wonder if it's easier for a westerner to move to Korea compared to someone from South East Asia (e.g., me).

What I Wore: (there is none)

I don't have any photos for this week because I don't have a job anymore! I sound very happy about it (because I am), but obviously once my money runs out I'm going to be stressing out again lol. 

It could also be bad or good timing, depending on how you look at it, because I caved and bought the new Pokemon game along with the Nintendo 3DS. I got it on Monday (I was unemployed beginning Thursday) and I completed the game on Friday. I'm currently breeding Eevees now lol. Before that, I spent a few hours a day catching Dittos so I could have all of the 25 Pokemon natures. I currently have about 50 Dittos sitting in my PC now. 

The new Pokemon game is gr8, Friend Safari is the best!! I've been adding all sorts of random people from Tumblr/Livejournal etc just to expand it. 

You should probably give up reading this blog now.

I guess in other non-video game related news, on the same day I left my job and had the worst job interview ever, all of my online shopping came as well. Shopping loves me too :')

What I Wore: 7/10 - 12/10 (week 8)

What I wore this week is not bad, if I must say so myself hahaha. My hair is always in a mess though fml. Work sucks, what is new. Honestly can't wait for my contract to end. I'm so tempted to just continue slacking around after my contract ends, but I need money so something has got to give. 

On Friday night we went to Jan's house for a sleepover! This is the most decent picture I could find hahaha. I couldn't sleep because I had to leave with Tiffany around 6 in the morning, so we stayed up and for about an hour we filmed music videos which should never see the light of day. It was fun but I think I'm getting too old for sleepovers :'(

Saturday morning saw Kuen Kuen, Tiffany and me cabbing down to Marina Bay to witness the boy's passing out parade. Because of the sleepover the night before, I didn't catch a wink of sleep, so I dozed off a lot during the prize giving ceremony and the speech hahaha. 

The soldiers looked so tiny from afar and when they were marching in and out it was rather cute and funny but when a breeze blew in you could catch a whiff of all the sweat odor :( The BMT roar was so cute! And when they all threw up their berets or whatever into the air it was quite touching hahaha *hormones* 

The two smelly boys we went to the parade for. Usually I find them quite disgusting and annoying because of the way they talk about girls/themselves/life/everything (lol it's ok because they usually ignore me) but on that day I found them exceptionally cute and precious hahaha.

UGH I want to get Pokemon X/Y but I have to buy the 3DS console ughhhh fuck capitalism why couldn't GameFreak release it to be compatible with the old DS consoles too ughhhh.

What I Wore: 30/9 - 4/10 (week 7)

This week saw me finding it very hard to get up before 7am, which is what I've been doing for the past six weeks. Work is just draining the life out of me. I've had to make calls the entire week to strangers asking, "Are you free now to answer a few questions?", ending the call after approximately 10 minutes. Rinse and repeat. 

I went for a job interview on Friday (I took an extended lunch break), and I don't think they're going to hire me because I can't start immediately. I could actually terminate my contract by giving a three days notice but I told my current company I would work till the contract ended. My dad thinks I'm being foolish because no one owes anyone anything and if I want to leave I should just leave because if my current company doesn't want me they'll freely kick me to the curb as well. There is truth to his words, but I don't think I would be comfortable going back on my words. 

Either way, the manager who interviewed me didn't leave a good impression on me, and I didn't leave thinking I absolutely had to work in the company, so... More job hunting it shall be. 

Also entering into that period where I am entirely disgusted with my physical appearance. I could go for weeks or months not feeling very bothered about how I look but suddenly something just sparks and I just become disgusted with my body, my face, and I wish I was prettier and better looking and it is so unhealthy but I think mentally and physically I am just unhealthy. :/

Conflicting

Adults tell you, "Always stick to your words". Stand by your words, don't go back on your words, be a (wo)man of your words, etc.

Yet when the time comes and it is convenient, it's a dog eat dog world.

"In this world you can only think for yourself."

This is why the world is the way it is, because humans only think for themselves.